I had a phone conversation this morning, and was asked to keep silent. To not project the truth. To not speak of events in my life that have occurred. When the reality is, it is my life. I lived it. I have every right to talk about it, sing about it, dance about it, or even write about it. That’s what people do, and for me, it’s survival. It is my outlet. I was taught as a child to express emotions creatively while in counseling, and that was probably one of the best things from childhood, that is still with me today. A creative outlet. For me, healing comes from talking it out, painting it out, singing it out, playing it out(piano), or writing it out. That is who I am.
What I can’t understand, is why people fear the truth so much. Why do people feel better sweeping things under rugs, verses facing them head on? I learned long ago, not to have secrets. And unfortunately despite having learned that lesson in my late teenage years, I still battled with it at the tail end of my marriage, but kept nothing completely inside. At times, I would be accused of having secrets, but they weren’t secrets, I told people about them. It was only a secret because I didn’t tell the one that deserved to be told.
In my life, there have been strained relationships because my honesty, and my blunt nature. It is more than some can handle. Some prefer to deny the truth. They refuse to accept that things are different than they appear. They would rather lie and manipulate people. They portray that their life is filled with sunshine, butterflies, flowers, and all the happy things instead of facing the truth, and accepting life for what it is. Yet they wonder, why their life is so miserable.
Those that fear the truth, and choose to live a life filled with secrets, despise me for this personality trait of mine. Meanwhile, I embrace it. It is what gives me peace. It gives me strength. Truth, consumes me. And I will dig, until it is revealed. A few will hate me for it, but many will respect it. Believe it or not, it is an honorable trait to have.
Perhaps this is what my purpose in life is. For I was once, a secret. The bastard child. The mistake. The outcast. The one on the outside, looking in. And just maybe, the fact that I entered this life a secret, is the exact reason I will leave it, with not a one. Perhaps, this is God’s plan for my life.
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The only people that fear it are the ones with something to hide.
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Absolutely! If you have nothing to hide, you hide nothing.
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Well…I have never understood this myself…I too am a truth seeker which means we probably get it from dad’s side of the family, although, SURELY not from him…LOL…
People are frightened often by people with no fear…And no fear is what you have when you live a guilt free, honest life. There is nothing to hold over your head. No secret to blackmail you with. Nothing you wouldnt say TO a person that you say when they are not around…And that frightens people.
The truth DOES hurt sometimes…And because of that fear people choose not to tell it. What I have never understood in almost EVERY instance in my life, the truth ALWAYS comes out…So I say beat it to the punch.
I dont want anyone ever having control over my life but me…
And thats what lying does…It gives the control to someone else…
I dont know about you, but that is NO WAY TO LIVE…I say speak the truth. Be open to where your truth may not be their truth. Listen, confront, muddle through the muck, and move on…
Its the only way to live…
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Very well spoken! Thanks for the insight on the control part. I couldn’t agree more. And yes, it always comes out.
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P.S. I love you!
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angela:
This is my first visit here. Your words ring so true within me; I am also, a speaker of truth. At the same time, I have those that leave my life, abruptly and unexpectedly. The connection to both is my truth. When I speak the truth, the truth that they also know but will not admit, they run for the hills. As painful as that is when it occurs, I NEVER, EVER, regret speaking it. Truth is always necessary, otherwise, we die inside. We alienate others. We lose ourselves. We sell out.
Truth only for me.
I will be back!!! Peace, Vanessa
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Thank you for visiting, and Im glad you enjoyed the read enough to come back. What I have noticed, in speaking the truth: Those that can’t handle it walk away, and when they do, God sends me more people in their place. It’s a pattern in my life I have observed lately. It happens every single time. The truth, really does set us free.
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Yes…the truth does set you free! When everything that I did for a year was discovered–I didn’t continue to lie and hide…I let it ALL out. The person I was with continued the lie. I don’t feel the need to run…I’m in a field of freedom now because I speak truth. When you live w/lies and secrets it nurtures the worst parts of your insides and keeps darkness inside of you. Light is so much sweeter!!
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I agree, lies nurture the worst part of our insides and keeps darkness inside us. Very nicely put! Thanks for returning to read more! Very nice to meet you Morgan!
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